Pre-Op Positivity

2020.

2020 has been a true rollercoaster of a year. As we begin to approach a new year there is reason for optimism. We may have a vaccine sooner than I thought, a lot of us miss ‘normality’, but, we can’t deny that we enjoyed the birdsong in March.

We, as students, HATE online university, or do we? We can work to our own schedule, and the law school, are more understanding of the need to work remotely. I decided to stay home, for better or for worse, it has allowed me to continue working (with my FANTASTIC colleagues) and my studies have not suffered. Although, I do miss the library! Covid has been an awful time for some people/businessess/livelihoods, and, yet, I’ve seen more friends than ever have the confidence to take control of their own lives, set up businessess, follow passions, and apply for jobs. Me? I’m in the midst of exams, applications, and operations.

There is always hope when you look for it. I am NOT an optimistic person. I am most definitely a pessismist. However, one would really struggle to get through this year without some form of optimism, whether that be of restrictions ending, or a vaccine. Next Friday I’ll go for my pre-op, that I did not think I’d be getting this year! I’ll be tested for Covid and then sent into self isolation. This may actually be of use, seeing as I’ll be in the middle of my exams. Equally, this could induce (more) breakdowns! On a more positive note, I was voted the representation adviser of the year for my voluntary work. An achievement means more, when its your passion. You are not just being rewarded, you are being acknowledged. It is that acknowledgement that makes you do that little dance inside, and, gives you hope. Like I say, I’m no optimist but we can find happiness is the small stuff.

I’ll be back early Monday morning for an upper GI endoscopy, with biopsies and a possible dilatation. I’ll be back under general anaesthetic so there is less worry on my part. I’m weirdly excited to be back, it means that progress will be being made, which I can only take as a positive. So, bad year, but the world keeps spinning, things are happening, you just need to be brave to be a part of them. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt, don’t put it off. You already know what ‘it’ means to you. You’ll feel fine.